Having transition issues...

Last night the hubbs came home and tells me that he was moved to night shift...this is a great thing, more time during the day to spend together.  But, back to going to bed without my honey!


I know I need to suck it up right? Well I have a really hard time with constant change. Most people with their critical opinions will tell me... "well you are in the Army now" or "you knew what you were getting into"... Let me say this...I knew when we joined (and I say "we" because whatever effects him in turn  affects us as a family)that it would be difficult, and there would be times I would curse the choice. But you can never really know what this job entails from the outside.


I support my husband and every other selfless soul that does their duty for this country! I have a new found respect for the family's and most of all the wives! To sacrifice time with your family's so that others may so unconsciously take theirs for granted. I am sorry if this offends you but No one can truly know or criticize what its like to go so long without the one person that makes the family whole, until you yourself would do that same thing. I read this back to myself and it sounds kinda rude in a way, but complete truth spoken.

True sacrifice


I recently had the pleasure of hanging out with a new friend,(she's prior service too) who's husband is deployed. She has a 17 month old and a 9 week old... WOW can you say Super Mom/wifey? I got to see from a different perspective how no matter how hard it is, you still press on! With Army life there is so much moving and separation. Separation from family, friends,etc. How do you get used to being pulled away from the only people who understand you?? Knowing that a "D" is in my very near future freeks me out beyond belief. My mind wont even allow me to say the word. Some sort of weird defence mechanism I cannot deflect..YET.. I guess I just don't want it to affect what little time we have together with this cloud hovering over us.


I know we will be just fine that's no question! It's defiantly not the easiest thing in the world. Okay enough of that!!

So Halloween is this weekend, and we have a jam packed schedule! AHHH love the holiday's but they fly by so fast. I want to cherish every moment spent and have lasting memories! Sometimes being the OCD overachiever I am tends to take away from the sentiment of the occasion. So for today my promise to myself is to savor moments. Yea, those are My Thoughts Exactly for today.